My Death is near....

What is death? i feel death is near but what exactly is it? R u death? are all the mix emotions u give me my death? only u  and u only know. So here i lay with a blade in one hand and my wrist waiting for the cut. The first drop of blood falls from my wrist but yet it is not red i bleed black but feel no pain, y? casue u have put me threw so much pain i am amune to it. i feel death is near or is it just me that wants to die to get away from it all? You've hurt me one to many times but yet im will allways be there for u but when the last drop of black blood falls i will be here no more will u remember me? will u think of me? only u know the answer to that and will u reminise of all the good and bad times we had and could of had? Are u my DEATH?....